Some times I have to step back and reflect on how thankful I need to be for things. I get in such fits where I feel like nothing is going right or my way. No one listens to me and my voice is never heard. I feel sorry for myself and think oh poor me. When really I have so much to be thankful for and so many reasons to be happy!!!!
Take Allie....she is THE most amazing 3 year old! Everyday she just wows me. They silly things that come out of her mouth, the expressions on her face, the laugh that is so high pitched. She is so random and comes up with the craziest questions and sayings. She still loves to cuddle with her dad and I and gives the best hugs and kisses. I hear I love you momma about 100 times a day and each time she says it my heart swells. She may repeat herself over and over even after you answer or give her what she wants but that's her. I use to say "I can't wait" or "I wish" for this or that but I have learned to stop saying those things because I can wait and I don't want to wish away the present. She is growing so fast that I feel like just yesterday I was carrying her in my belly or feeding her baby food. Time just flies by SO fast. So today...right now...is the reason I need to be more thankful for my little bear. She makes her daddy and my heart melt each day. I need to learn to be more patient with her and stop and listen to her sweet voice more often because soon I'll have a door slammed in my face when she is 16 and her say she never wants to speak to me again....now those days I can wait for!!!
Bradley...(sigh) my man, my best friend, my hubby, my core. He holds me together. He's my rock. I get so annoyed that when he comes home the first thing he doesn't do is unload and load the dishwasher or take the trash out but really I need to stop and think...he just got home from work...is that the first thing I do when I come in?? ...well no. Even though he is taking two classes at school, switching units in the Army, trying to get his trainer licence for the gym, plays on a hockey league, and works full time.... he still makes time for us. He still has tickle time with Allie 10 times a day, still makes me feel important, we still watch movies together, were still a couple. I need to be nicer to him....
My parents...If I do half as good as they did I'll be on the right track. My dad has always been there for us and has always supported us no matter if he really liked it or not. My mom, I almost have no words for how great she is. I love this women more then anything, she means the world to me. She is so caring and has so much love in her heart for her family especially her grandkids. She is the women I want to be.
My Sisters...When we were growing up like most sisters we really didn't like each other. Poor Tammy had to watch us all the time and care for us, we kinda robbed her of some of her teenage years. Shanon was always looking for ways to hurt me or blame her mess ups on me lol. The older we get the closer we get. We share ideas with each other and have so much fun together. More like best friends then sisters.
There are many more things that I am thankful for. So from today on I will try and be more thankful for what I have and have a positive attitude and not be so grumpy.


