I miss my husband!

I really REALLY Really miss Brad today. I haven't seen him in 24 days, and I wont see him for another 9 days. I know that is nothing compaired not seeing him for 9 months or more. This is the longest we have gone with out seeing each other so far. Im so proud of him and what he is doing while he is serving our country and making our lives better.

I have a great support team and great family and friends that are here to help us every step of the way. Im very thankful!!!

He sent me this pic yesterday. He is in Fr. Dix, NJ training.

So hot!!! 

Army Wives Quotes...

Love these.....

The following are some of my favorite quotes for Army Wives:

• Live everyday like he deploys tomorrow.
• The military is my husband's mistress & sometimes that bitch gets all the attention.
• Put on your big girl panties and get ready to deal with a lot of $#!%
• My Soldier makes me scream Hooh-ah.
• If you love a Soldier, raise your glass. If not, raise your standards.
• Army wife… the H-E-R in HERO.
• You go fight for the world. I'll be home fighting for us.
• Why play with Ken when you can have G.I. Joe?
• Army wives get to legally mess with government property.
• Sexually deprived for your freedom.
• I make his dog tags jingle.
• Forget Prince Charming, I have a U.S. Soldier.
• My high heels need your combat boots.
• My man serves so yours won’t get drafted.
• God found some of the strongest women and made their match a Soldier.
• Be jealous, my Soldier is better than your civilian. ok...so, that's just mean)
• I’m the Pink in his world of Camo.
• If the only place that I could see you is in my dreams, I'd sleep forever.
• We are the perfect couple, we're just not in the perfect situation.
• When you feel alone, just look at the spaces between your fingers, remember that in those spaces you can see my fingers locked with yours forever.
• Don't measure the distance; measure my love.
• Close together or far apart, you're forever in my heart.
• Love puts the 'fun' in together, the 'sad' in apart, and the 'joy' in a heart.
• I miss tripping over combat boots.
• Every Soldier deserves a trophy wife.
• Draft beer, not people.
• Military wife: one of the toughest jobs in the military.
• The girl he left behind is still behind him. I support my hero!
• Real love is trading in your diamonds for his dog tags.
• Stay safe; sleep with a soldier (one that isn't married anyways)
• Tough times never last, but tough people do.
• Together forever, never apart; maybe in distance, but never in heart.
• If you think soldiers are strong, you should look at their woman.
• My heart belongs to a soldier.

Throwing in the towel.......I mean the nipple shields and pump.

After a long hard few weeks, I've decided its time to stop breast-feeding. Not because of low supply or work or anything other reasons I thought I would be stopping. But because Marley's acid reflux is so bad. After racking my brain to see what else I could do for my poor baby because after a week on medicine it still was no better and my sitter is about to quit on me. I kept thinking she hated my milk. I googled "Is it possible for a baby to not like their moms milk?" Everything I read pointed to no, not possible. I watched what I ate, nothing spicy, no dairy. I was ready to go to soup and bread diet! I called the doctors office and talked with a nurse and told her I thought Marley's problem was my milk. She told me that if I was comfortable with it, I could try giving her formula for the weekend, pump to keep up my supply and see if it helped. I supplemented a few times while breast feeding so I knew she didn't have a problem with formula. Brad was coming home for the weekend so I thought it was worth a shot. I could pump while he fed Marley. The weekend was good. Not great but better. My heart hurt because I thought that it was for sure me that was the problem. Come Monday, I sent breast milk with Marley to the sitters because I just wasn't willing to face it just yet. She had a horrible day. My poor sitter. She has been a Saint so far. She told me she had screamed most of the day and is very uncomfortable. Tuesday I sent formula along thinking it would help the problem. She was better but not great. I sent the doctor an email and soon after a nurse called. We talked about how much she was spitting up and how she was not content. She said the doctor wanted to see us. After seeing the doctor he told me to keep her on the gentle ease formula and add rice cereal to it. Come to find out the dosage of medication she was getting wasn't right. The pharmacy called the doctors office 3 times asking them to lower it. The third time was after hours and they spoke to a doctor that wasn't Marley's. She was getting half of what she should have been getting. The doctor upped it to three times a day to the right dosage. Last night she got her the rice/formula bottle and she did good. She woke up in the middle of the night smiling and happy. I sent the same to the sitters today and she sent me this text " She is doing amazing! She played for over an hour after her bottle with out one little cry. She started acting sleepy about 15 minutes ago and is already asleep." All I want is for my baby to be happy and healthy. If this is working this is what we are doing. Some might say there are ways around it and things we can do to work around it. I'm sure they are right. But with no husband, a sitter who is about to quit, working, and a screaming baby I'm going to stop. I can't say the word quit. I don't think I'm quitting, I think I'm doing what is best for Marley. Its all about survival mode at this point.

I can't say I'm not sad because my goal was to do it for a year. I considered everyday a success. I didn't get past a week with Allie so doing it 9 weeks with Marley is much better. I have a freezer full of milk that I'll keep and maybe I can use it to mix in her food when she is older and has a stronger belly.