Missing you

Im having a really hard day today. For no reason really. You being over 7000 miles away from me is reason enough I guess.

Im trying to be strong and brave for you and the girls but sadly today not even a few weeks in to this deployment Im having a freaking break down.

I have no idea how Im ever going to make it 8 1/2 more months! Seeing it that way today makes it feel like its an impossible journey. I know its not. I know many spouses do it and do it more often. But right now I can't look past today and the empty spot in my heart that only you can fill.

Im trying to keep busy with out overwhelming myself. Its a fine line to walk. I don't like to be home too much but its where things are the easiest. I wish you could call me more and hope that will change with your work schedule. Deployment is such an awful thing! I am thankful that at least we can see your face on the computer and the phone. I couldn't imagine what it was like in previous wars when people had to wait weeks for a letter.

Im working on the count down chain for Allie's room, by the looks of it so far its going to wrap around the house! 280+ days.

I can't wait till I get to see your face again...I hope its soon.

xo J